Dee's Digital Mall

Sports Kit

2009-08-25T22:29:00.004-04:00

Well, I finally have had time to do a kit. It's not much and not to creative, but it did take a while to do. Everything is "mouse" drawn by me. I hope you all can find a use for it.

TOU

2009-08-11T03:28:00.000-04:00

Anything I offer on here as a freebie is just that.
MOST will be PERSONAL USE. I will post a few items that you can use commercially.
DO NOT include my works in ANY scrap kits you may put together.
If posting my items within a group link back to my blog.
ANYTHING I make and post are my own works. Any similarities to other works is merely coincidence.
If you have more questions about the use of my items PLEASE email me. deesknickknackshop@gmail.com

Things to come...

2009-08-11T03:15:00.002-04:00

Well, since we have the house now, I will no longer be using this space to promote my journey, well for the most part. I have decided to turn it back over to the main reason for starting this blog.

In the days and weeks to come, I will start posting digital scrap kits, and other things of my creation. I will also be posting samples of things that will be offered on my morphsbydee site. Digital scrap kits and graphics that I will be selling. Naturally, I will be offering freebies on here quiet often. The amount of time it takes me to create something will distinguish between free items and pay to use items.

I will also be leaving the donation button. This button is there ONLY for those who would like to leave a donation. I don't require anything other then a nice thank you in the comment box for the item you download. The button is merely there and used to help make sure my programs are up to date so that I can offer you more pieces to work with. Please DO NOT feel obligated to use it.

Once and a while there will be artists who also will offer freebies and such and I will post their links and such AS PER their terms of use. I do ask that you claim none of my work OR their work as your own as that IS plagiarism. A lot of times artists WILL find out about it and WILL take legal action. I suggest that covering your basis and giving credit where it is due.

It's been a few days UPDATE

2009-08-09T13:40:00.002-04:00

Well, this has been one tiring experience. I have worked until I am honestly having nightmares about things happening in that house. I know it's probably only because of being there so much and working so hard. I'm honestly getting tired of seeing for a while. Thankfully today is my break from it. However, I think I would rather be working there instead of here. I have fallen behind on so much online work. Past due items, bills, and such. I don't know that I will ever get caught up. My graphics is the main thing that has taken a blow from this move. I haven't been able to work on any of them, a lot of which are PAST DUE. I hate doing that to my clients, hopefully, most of them understand the delay.

As for the work on the house, everything is pretty much ready for the new carpet. I like one little section on the living room wall to put border and the living room will be ready. The bathroom is completely painted and so is the kitchen and the kids room. Our bedroom is the only room that isn't even started, BUT, since it has to be papered, I am going to leave it until I can find paper that I like that is cheap and then I will get it put up.

The kids went back to school Thursday, so it has allowed me a bit more time to work and finish up on things that I need to finish. I'm just so excited to see everything done.

2009-08-03T22:14:00.003-04:00

MEN!!! I can't down ALL men, BUT, I can say that my ex is the scum of the earth. He is one of those "convenient" fathers. You know the ones who ONLY want the kids when it's convenient for him? Or, then you have the ones who think that they can do what they want and get away with it.

For instance, he was caught once for theft and drugs. Well, He spent only a few short weekends in jail for that one, yes I said weekends. They let me off through the week so he could work. Or so he says. He has yet to be caught with the kids out of seatbelts (still not sure how that happens). And and lets not forget he draws 500+ in unemployment, but only pays 98/two weeks. Now that's alot compared to some, BUT, I can't even get my kids what all they need with that.

David is even stepping up and taking up slack were Jamie is lacking. He spends all his paycheck to make sure they have what they need(that we can afford) and so we have a little to take them fishing or to the park.

Now what got me stirred today was the fact that I told Jamie Saturday to get the kids new shoes and backpacks because I had all the rest (barely). He brings Nickie (the middle one) to open house at school, with USED shoes. Now, if he couldn't afford it I could understand BUT, he has NO bills, and even after child support is removed, he still gets 500+. He puts this little rust bucket that he swears he is going to fix in front of what his kids need. What kind of man is that? Well, it's not much of one. It's always been another woman or a vehicle that came between him and his kids, even when we were still married.

WHEN WILL HE GROW UP!!!!

Going smooth and she starts again.

2009-08-03T07:29:00.002-04:00

Well, apparently, my mom thinks that if you work you can't be a good mom. Also, apparently, if you take naps, your not a good mom or something. That was thrown in my face this morning already. Apparently since I work late on my graphics (to keep from bumming them for money), and I have laid down ON THE COUCH WHERE THE KIDS ARE to take a nap I am not being a good mommy. HMMM so does that mean that if I get a job once my car is fixed, I'm a bad mommy? I didn't realize that working to supply a little money here and there was a bad thing to do. She threw up to me how "I didn't work when you all were growing up!" I'm so excited to get moved so I don't have to listen to her and her constant complaining. Plus, I know I won't have to see them hardly at all, because they won't come around my house. Well, unless I'm cooking for them. How does she expect people to make it now days on one job of minimum wage? They can do it without her working because honestly, she takes the money out of the business and spends it. That could be the reason they never have the money to run the business. I can't wait to get out of here!!!!!!!!

I told David that it looks like I'm going to be locked up before we get out. I was hoping we could be out by next week, but that's getting slimmer and slimmer. The electric company charged me $250 last time I had electric turned on. And with rates going up I'm sure that did too. I have done some calling around to try to get help getting it on, but like with everything else, the funds are low. I'm getting to a point that I hate good news because it's only followed up with bad news, or someone causing trouble.

A friend suggested that I put my cards on Ebay and sell them that way. Not sure how that would go over since you have to pay the listing fees and such. Oh well, it's just something I suppose I will have to risk. Got to do something to prove that my work on here is just as important as an outside job, since I can't drive to a job right now. When will she open her eyes and see that I am doing the best I can and stop acting like I'm not or what I do is not good enough.

Slowly moving forward.

2009-07-30T21:55:00.002-04:00

What a past few days this has been. We wondered about finding a place for so long that I didn't think of all the prep work to go into moving.

We (mom and I can u believe that?) painted two of the rooms today. We were going to initially wait until we got the rent paid due to having no funds to get the paint plus pay the first months rent. Then this morning he called and said for us to go to a little local home supply store and get the paint we wanted and charge it to his rental account there. WOW, how nice of him, since we had offered to paint it out of our pocket once we had made rent. So anyways, we go to get the items needed to do the paint job, and the man at the store GAVE us two gallons of paint, and a pint of paint. Just gave them to use. He charged for the supplies needed to paint though. So, I sign the bill slip and off I go.

We spent about 3 hours painting two rooms. The living room was the hardest because we did the top of the wall cream and the bottom a dark green. Now to find a really nice border to up in between them. Then while painting the living room mom found another gallon of paint in the kitchen that hadn't been used. It was the prettiest shade of creamy yellow I have seen. So, we went ahead and painted the bathroom with it. I'm going to trim the bathroom with green. The kitchen we are just going to paint the cabinets because I DON'T want to fight with painting the paneling in the kitchen. All in all, it has been a decent day. The house if pretty much ready for him to put down the new carpet other then a few touch-ups we have to finish this weekend. So move in might be a little closer then first expected. I'm getting SO excited!!!

Now off I got to work on some new graphics to replace the ones I lost in the computer crash. Hope everyone is having an awesome evening and night.

God Bless!

WE FOUND A HOME!!

2009-07-27T12:14:00.002-04:00

Ok, so it's not much, but it's a home. It's $250 per month, BUT, it's two bedrooms. Now, granted that they said we couldn't have a 2 bedroom house, BUT, this has a one room big enough to divide into two separate rooms. Anyways, we have gone from needing around $600 down to about $425. That should cover the first months rent and the electric hook up. It's water supply is a well, but he said it was a strong well and wouldn't go out on us. It's needs a little cleaning around and mowing, but that doesn't bother me. We are permitted to paint the inside to look as we want it to, he just wants the outside kept nice (NOT A PROBLEM). It's a bit on the small side, but it gets me out of this place. We are on a three week wait as far as getting to move in due to us painting the walls and his crew (he owns a carpet place) to put new carpet down.

As for moving in, well, we have the big things we need, but we are going to somehow need to get little things like plates bowls and such to eat with/out of. Sheets and such, and curtains. I'm sure I can work enough to get those. LMBO, who wants to host a shower for me........LMBO, all jokes aside, I am super excited to get a place away from here!!!!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.....

Enough already.

2009-07-25T23:10:00.002-04:00

Well, what about that, just when I think that things may be turning around, I take another fall, or two.

First, Friday I turn in my Avon order, thinking that payments had been accepted, but apparently the almost $45 bill WASN'T paid like I thought, and the card I paid it with was a child support card, money is there, BUT, the card is NOT working. Customer service nor I can figure out why. So, I go on to use the card somewhere else, NOTHING worked. AHHHHHHHHH. THEN, I come in Friday evening to do finalization of the computer shut down so we could go camping yet again this weekend and you'll never guess. MY SYSTEM CRASHED. EVERYTHING was lost, pictures, and everything. There goes my business. It seems that things will never get fixed.

Then, my lovely parents came home talking about places for rent. PLACES that I have currently already been checking on. I asked them if they were going to pay the deposit and such on it. Plus, the electric hook up and water and all. Naturally, they aren't going to. She went ahead and made an appointment to talk to a guy about one place, BEFORE asking me if I could afford all that or even if I was able to go at that time.

UGH, I just want a bit of good news for once!!!

Another wall.

2009-07-23T13:28:00.002-04:00

Well, i finally was able to make contact with the apartment lady. She said they didn't have any low-income apartments open. The ones they did have open were $300/month, which would COULD have probably made barely. BUT, they were all two bedrooms. She made it clear that we couldn't rent one. Our family is to big for a two bedroom. So now back to square one.

We get to start the search over again now. Figures huh? Never thought it would be so hard to get moved out of this place.

Some people.

2009-07-21T12:53:00.002-04:00

Well, well, if it isn't my family being rude, or people on here begging for money for bills they shouldn't have gotten knowing (in most cases) that it was going to stretch their budgets to far, it's the landlords of places that I COULD possibly find my kids a home.

I have called my last resort.........APARTMENTS, I had hoped it wouldn't have to come down to this again, but seeing as how, I was informed of some that are local (down town) that MAY have a 3-4 bedroom apt open, I figured that was the best move. Still not sure how I will get that deposit and make the rent each month, BUT, anything beats here. I'm tired of no privacy, my kids taking the blame for everything, and me being dogged when someone gets mad. Anywho, I have called this apartment complex for the last 8 days. NO ANSWER either time I have called. It hasn't matter what time of day I call or anything. No one knows how to get in contact with the lady over them or anything other than the office number listed in the phone book.

Mom just came in to inform me that the apartments I am looking for are suppose to be undergoing a police watch for a drug dealer, well, what about that? I find a place and SOMEONE knocks it out. UGH, am I doomed to live her forever?

The latest on everything

2009-07-20T08:17:00.002-04:00

Good morning my lovely followers!

Today, I'm hoping, will be the day I find a place. I'm hoping that we can get an apartment in town. A friend that lives in another set close to these said that she THINKS, that a family just moved out of one of the 3-4 bedroom ones (yes another set here that has them). I had searched trying to find out about another set like that, but kept being told there wasn't any! So, today will be filled with calling this place all day if that's what it takes. I'm not sure what days the Manager is in, but hopefully I can catch her today to find out. Send a few prayers my way that there will be one open and I can get it!

As for the front here at this place. Things have chilled out a little. The pushing has eased a bit, but the little "brat" that gets the other trouble started is still showing herself. She is upset because mom and dad are not giving her their FULL attention and she is having to share it with my children (their grand children)...lol...what I WOULDN'T give to her in her shoes. I would hate to want that much attention all the time. It's crazy to watch her...

Anyways thought I would pop in and give an update!!

Fishing.

2009-07-18T14:36:00.002-04:00

What a night. My Uncle, 2 cousin(distant), David(hubby), MaKaliah(my baby), and I all went down to the river last night. It's my escape from here on the weekends lately. Seems to be the only option we have left lately that's not going to cost us money. Anyways, we had a blast (as always). We don't really do much "fishing" but of course my uncle says that if we were suppose to catch anything it would be called "catching" not fishing...lol. Anyways we had a good time.

We got a few bites, but it doesn't seem that we are able to land the fish that are biting. I told them that the just don't like our bait...lol...

It got pretty chilly last night, so I got to watch David and my cousins being silly trying to build a campfire. Of course I was wrapped up in a sleeping back in a reclining foldout chair so sleep came before I could see how much fun they really had to keep it going. It had rained earlier so they were using anything flamable to keep it buring. With that bunch it probably wasn't the smartest thing to fall asleep around, but oh well we had fun!!

A Bath...

2009-07-16T22:16:00.003-04:00

UGH, I just wanted a bath was that to much to ask that everyone get theirs while the kids were awake so that I could get one when they laid down? Since no one is willing to help me with them (well without complaining if they do something) then why not do what they need to do BEFORE the kids go to bed so that I can do my thing after they are asleep? I'll tell you why...there is a 16 yr old "ME ME ME" that lives here and doesn't care what anyone else needs or wants. I'm so tired of going to be "stinky" and having to wake up stinky before I can get a bath. I really would like to get a bath BEFORE bed and one the next morning. Unlike mom, I enjoy more then a "hygiene" bath. I want and ACTUAL bath EVERY day. UGH, 8 people can not use ONE (yes you read right) bathroom.

As for the comment of "well without complaining about something they did" about the kids and them watching them for me. If I leave them for 5 minutes and the kids do something you better believe when I walk in the door I'll hear it. All I can say is "your the grandparents, If you can't make them mind while I'm gone, then don't complain when they do stuff." It's not like I can watch them if I'm not right there when they are doing things. Apparently, they think I can watch the kids and not be at home...hmmmmmm what a concept of thinking they have.

Today, Courtney (the ME ME ME girl) said something about the internet and I was like well thank you very much, I had been paying it. She comes back with "mom says you don't". WHAT!?!?!?!?! I have give them money for it and the electric every month that David has been working. How does she get off telling people I don't pay stuff or help them out. Hello, if I wasn't helping them out I could afford a home and wouldn't have to look like a big bum trying to raise money to get a home. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH the nerve some people have.

When David got home he must have saw the stress because he said that if he had to walk me to the river we were getting out and going fishing. It helps us both relax. My Uncle Winston (who is a preacher and my best friend) is going with us, so we won't have to be out more then 1/4 gallon of gas to get there. Plus a close family friend is going, and supposedly, they are bringing everything but fishing poles for us. It will feel good to get away from here for a while where I don't have this stress and aggravation.

I also noted today that my ankles and legs are starting to swell some. A nurse friend said that stress will do that to ya. LOL, that has to be it. I don't have anything else bothering me, but who knows, I told her that if it didn't go down by Monday I would get it checked out.

Anyways, that's the gist of my day, hope everyone else is having a great day/night!

Hugs and Love till next time!

A Moment of Thank You's

2009-07-16T01:47:00.003-04:00

This is long over due but there are a few people who really need to be talked about in a "THANK YOU" post.

I hate to list any names because everyone has been just as helpful as another...

Lets start off with Summer. She has taken time to talk to me, built a site which will help other WAHM's in need, and as of right now hold the story of where I started up to this point. She is also running a raffle to help with my "home fund" and has be an awesome friend. Sorry Summer if you didn't want that let out of the bag.

Next up has to be my "donater" if there is even a word such as that. I have yet to figure out who she was or is, but, she has thought enough of my family and myself to make a donation to help us out. She didn't have to do this and has in no way shape fashion or form (As with Summer) asked for any gratification for her acts of kindness.

Then there is my Avon upline Lorraine. She has been such wonderful support to me. Not only on the business end but with my life. She has offered a product for sale where proceeds go to this fund also. She also has not asked for gratification of any sort.

Ronda has also offer a item up to help with this fund. She too has been a shoulder for me and asks for nothing in return. I am grateful to have her as a friend.

My friend Amy also needs to be thanked. She is being supportive by being another shoulder for me to run to. So many things that I hate to talk to anyone about, I go to Amy with. She is a hard worker and a very good friend.

All of the followers of this blog deserve a big Thank you also. It keeps me motivated to do my updates, and keep my faith that things will work themselves out, to know that I have people who care enough to want to know how things are going.

I'm sure I am forgetting someone very important and if I have please let me know. You deserve all the praises of these ladies too. It's supporters like you ladies that help others get through the tough times. I can never repay the debt of gratitude that I have for each of you. Just when a person thinks they have given all the love they have, somewhere fom deep in the bottomless pits of their heart is more love to give to those friends to believe in you. You all are like part of my family and are truly my gifts from God. I pray that he returns all of your gifts many times over because you ladies deserve it.

I love you all very much, and I hope that one day I will be able to return this favor to you in some way.

A break.

2009-07-15T20:37:00.002-04:00

Well for a change today wasn't full of "pushing" from mom. But then again, she wasn't home the biggest part of today. But when she was home, she complained a lot about a mess that MaKaliah had made (over and over again) that I cleaned up every few minutes today.

I was hoping that since we hopefully we be getting my car fixed by next week (Thank God for country mechanics that are willing to take SMALLLLL payments) I could start looking for a job to help get us off the ground and more help to get something for us to live in or at. That was the plan because MaKaliah HAD BEEN promised a spot at the head start here, which meant that I wouldn't need a full time sitter for very long, then it would only be a couple hours a day if that, that I would need one. Well, that changed when I got the letter today that informed me that she has been placed on a waiting list. It infuriated me. Why promise a spot then stick her on a waiting list. The know when they sign kids up if they have a place or not PRIER to the sign up. So, now I'm back to square one with figuring how to afford a sitter place get us a place.

Anyways, just thought I would pop on to give an update.

Hope everyone is having a blessed day!

2009-07-15T16:34:00.002-04:00

Taking someone's hope...

2009-07-14T11:32:00.002-04:00

Ok, this is completely off course for my blog but I was wondering....

IF YOU TAKE SOMEONE'S LAST HOPE, IS IT REALLY WORTH IT?

I ask this because of some trying to do that to me. I don't believe it was intentional, BUT, if I knew that was someone's last hope, There is not way I could take it from them.

A comment was made that trying to figure out a way to eventually get us a trailer of our own, on a spot of land I can keep it on. We are doing our best to make the best choices for our family.

This has become more urgent then before and I will not post details of why on here. If you want to know then you are welcome to ask in a private email or message. I refuse to blast this reason and cause more trouble then I'm already dealing with.

Anyways, if you have something to say to someone, make sure that they aren't using their last hope with what they are doing!

Something new to help the "Home Fund"

2009-07-14T01:42:00.003-04:00

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Showing off some of my work

2009-07-13T21:44:00.004-04:00

Here are a few things I have done from scratch.

GET IT NOW!

2009-07-13T21:32:00.003-04:00

A wonderful friend has made me an offer I can't refuse! She is letting me offer this beautiful bracelet up for sale, to help me with my "Home Fund". It's $18 INCLUDING SHIPPING!

If you would love to make this beautiful bracelet yours email me at deesknickknackshop@gmail.com and put BRACELET in the subject line. Lets find this beauty a GOOD home!!!

MAYBE a ray of light, but it's VERY SMALL

2009-07-13T21:21:00.002-04:00

I spoke with my granny today, she has a spot behind her house that she says I can put a trailer on IF I can get one... OK, well that was the ray of light. Then right into a brick wall I go. Funny, how things look like they would be working out but not actually be doing that. The brick wall is the fact that to do that, we have to get dozer work done, ON TOP, of the whole finding a trailer, getting it moved, putting in a septic tank, hooking up electric, and all the other stuff that needs done to move into one. OH, and lets not forget talking to the guy who owns the hill behind mama that the road would have to travel up. So, to do it this way I have to raise A LOT of money, and with this economy, that's quiet the challenge.

Then today, David has to go back to the doctor, and found out that he is going to have to have a lot of blood work, stress tests and chest x-rays done. LOL, my life sounds like a bad story book. Once I think I can see the top, here comes the clouds again....

What more can I take?

2009-07-13T00:30:00.002-04:00

UGH, well, I was in hopes that things would be going up, but seems like every turn has another let down.

David (my hubby) has "issues" I think, he is bi-polar, but his doc thinks it's anti something, can't remember what he called it. Anyways, he lets me know tonight that he doesn't feel the meds are working. They were at one point in time, but with all the arguing lately, he says there are days he just wants to die. I HAD NO CLUE! He says that sometimes he just wants to let the wheel of the car go and hopes not to make it. This naturally breaks my heart because here I sit in a sea of tears all the time with stress and everything, but I wouldn't dare speak that to him. This place is going to destroy my marriage! He says if we could get out on the weekends and have fun it wouldn't be this bad, BUT, to do that means no saving for a house WHICH we need. I hate this! I shouldn't be made to choose between my husband's "sanity" and all this crap falling around me....

Looking up and down...

2009-07-12T15:24:00.003-04:00

Well, life seems to be making fun of me. For instance today, David comes across an ad for a FREE trailer, granted it needed work, but still it was FREE! Catch was it needed moved, plus tires so that it could be moved. Well, if I had a place to set it, and the money to move it and tires so that it COULD be moved, I would have had a free home.

On a bright side, I have been able to be out of this place for a couple days. Friday, my Aunt Steph came to pick me up and took me to pay bills and such, then we spent the rest of the afternoon at her house to keep me from coming back here. Now, you may wonder "why didn't you go with your mom since she goes out the same time?" A very simple answer really. She decided, that she wanted to "rush" to town that morning, now, she does this EVERY FRIDAY, YET, when we leave she talks to EVERYONE she sees, without rushing... So, I asked why and explained how she does EVERY FRIDAY MORNING, and she get ticked like no other, then throws up (yet again) "two families can't live in one house without some fighting" DO WHAT? Two families could, IF the first family offered the same respect that they DEMAND the second family to show to them. She does this EVERY DAY, KNOWING that I can't afford the deposit on a place (IF we could find one big enough for 5 people to live in). Child Protection has already told me that we MUST have a 3 bedroom home. Which I understand because I do not think my older two NEED to be living in the same room being that SHE is 9 and HE is 7. NOT a good idea since those ages are the starting of "curiosity".

I realize that everyone is in a tight spot finacially right now, but, I also want my kids to be in a stable enviroment. They don't worry about little things like toys and such, but they constantly ask "why can't everyone get along". They don't understand the respect issue or rather the lack of from one side of this.

Anyways, I guess I'll stop here, this whole topic has me utterly depressed and hard to type and cry ya know? But, If I can be of assistance with anything please ask me. I'll figure out some way to help out.

OH, and before I forget, Thanks for those who are doing their best to help me. It means more then you will ever know. And for those who aren't, I understand!

When will it stop.

2009-07-09T15:52:00.000-04:00

Well, yesterday was decent until the evening came around. Then all heck breaks loose. My sister started naturally. Dad naturally stood there and let her tear me down over something MOM asked me to do. I am just so tired of it all, if it wasn't for my kids or should I say the thought of losing them, I would just rather live in a car. Anything has to be better then this.

I'm hoping that this coming week I can get my car fixed and MAYBE find a job. Naturally babysitters are going to eat most of that up, but I can save the rest towards a home too. We found a place that will let us make payments on getting it fixed so that will help out a little bit. Just hoping it CAN be fixed without having to replace the whole motor.

My SIL's oldest daughter let it slip today that they have all be talking about me behind my back. Now what kind of family is that? If I have something to say about one of them, I take it to her their faces. I don't do the whole "two-faced" thing. I don't believe in it. If I have go behind someone's back to say something, you better believe that I will go to that person and say it just the same. There is nothing that I hide from people. It's a matter of being up front and honest. Naturally some people don't like that but that's their own personal issue, not mine.

As for my graphics, well I was hoping that things would take off pretty quick, but not even a question has came to me about them. I will not give up doing them, but wish something would come along so that I can get some of that put back. Was also hoping that Avon would pick up. I hate trying to work a business that doesn't seem to sell, and when it does it's always to someone else, don't get me wrong, I love to hear of the other reps getting sales. I just wish it wasn't sales I had worked to get. You know, the people who will ask questions like mad about signing up, or a discount on a product, but run to another rep to make the purchase?

I'm not sure on the process of the raffle that Summer is doing to help me, but I'm sure things are moving along great with it. I will be forever debited to her for her help. It's nice when others think enough of you to help you out. In times of need you truly find out who the TRUE friends are. You know those people who come out of the wood works to make sure you get where you need to be.

In three years as a WAHM, I have bent over backwards helping other WAHM's meet quota's, passing blasts, and anything else that they may need. I even joined a spree group to help other's out. I spent money helping others that honestly I didn't have. I gave and worked until I was financially unable to keep up with what I had done to help. Now, given that has completely stopped. I'm so tired (and as I hear a a lot, so are some of the rest of you). of the "me me me" people. Those kind of people are the people I don't need in my life. I don't need negitive people, or those who think they can talk down to others because they don't like their idea. The people that think they are above all others! Last I checked we were all EQUAL. For those who do not know what that means... Webster says: of the same measure, quantity, amount, or number as another.

ok well, I suppose that's enough of a rant for me for now. Just so tired of this place and want out for the sake of my kids. Is that wrong of me?

New Venture

2009-07-08T08:43:00.000-04:00

What a time I'm having. The stress point is a little lighter since I started blogging but the stress of searching for a place is the worst. I have found a couple prospective rentals, but if they are like the rest of the ones I have checked on then they are too small, but something will come along I'm sure.

Now on to this new venture of mine. I had it brought to my attention that I was "wasting" my creativity on only doing banners and buttons, and tags and such. I was asked why I wasn't doing invitations and things of that nature. It could be a boost to my "HOME FUND". So, naturally, I got started. I will be posting some of the things I have done on here. But most will be placed on to my Morphs By Dee site. If I have had the honor of doing creating something for you, then you know how hard I work to make sure the creation is to your liking. I do not stop until YOU are happy. That will continue into this new venture also. I believe that if I make you a happy client, then you will be telling your friends, and passing me around. I can't wait to watch this get going. It is sure to be a hard job, but one I can't wait to start...

As for how they will work...

If I create something for you, then you have two options...
Purchase the item and print it yourself. That would be a cost of $10. OR you can purchase the item and I can print them and mail them to you for $25. The cost includes shipping. If I print them they will be done at a professional print shop. Once the purchase is made you will get a copy of the card (all done as post cards) will be sent to you. This allows for extra printing, and it will be your way to offer email invitations also.

I will not be allowing a refund of purchase price because you will need to give approval of the items BEFORE shipping or printing. If you have an issue BEFORE shipping or printing I will give you a full refund. Should I see a product passed around after a refund is given, you will be charged for that product. I think I am overly fair about this as it is my hard work and time taken from my family to create your product, I deserve a little bit of common curtsy and respect.

If after you have received your FINAL product, and wish for changes to be made AFTER your approval of the item, there will be a small fee of $1.50.

If you order multiple items, such as invitations/thanks you cards. There will be a package deal. The package will be $40 instead of $50.

If you have any other questions please feel free to contact me at deesknickknackshop@gmail.com

Thanks to my friend Summer

2009-07-07T14:08:00.000-04:00

Summer has been a quiet observer of my issues lately. So being the awesome person she is she is offered to help me out. Here is her message. I hope that everyone can help out!

These products are not even purchased yet they will come fresh to the person they can choose their scent they are homemade bath & body products

here is the blast you can add

Ever been in love with a certain scent and cannot afford all the products? Why not try our basket full of brand new homemade bath & body products from Simply Tempted!? Simply Tempted is a business that specializes in making homemade bath & body products! Their prices are inexpensive and their scents are amazing. Depending on the scent chosen, we will include some of the following: Moisturizing Bath Bar, Tarts or Breakaway Candle Bars, Shea Butter Body Parfait, Hand & Body Cream, Jar candle, Body Butter, and Body Splash for this basket. Scents available for this basket are Black Raspberry Vanilla, Winter Candy Apple or a miscellaneous mixture of our choosing. We will choose a winner via www.random.org and send a finished product sample picture to you before we send the basket to you! Tickets are $2. Bulk orders are available for tickets! Please email all interest and inquiries to giftgiversparadise@gmail.com
they have to email me for all payment options cash, check or paypal if paypal, they NEED TO ENTER: Simply Tempted Basket not anything about a raffle in the note section. Send paypal as a gift and there is no fees.

About my graphics.

2009-07-07T13:16:00.000-04:00

For those who have asked about my graphics, your requests have not gone unnoticed. I have a preview of things I can create on the morphsbydee link. There you can see the things I do. NOW, mind you the ones on that site are created mainly by me. There my be a couple backgrounds or embellishments that I have acquired through online acquaintances. Those would not be for sale of anything like that. I create things based on requests. If you have a comment or question about my work on there please don't hesitate to ask me through email. (deesknickknackshop@gmail.com). I don't mind creating things from my imagination, however, it helps if you have some sort of idea in mind. The will not be a time when any two people will get the same button/banner/graphic. I say this because I do not do copies UNLESS a company owner requests that the banners be alike in all aspects. ALL PROCEEDS FROM ITEMS I MAKE GO TOWARDS MY HOME FUND.

Support, but at what cost?

2009-07-07T01:16:00.000-04:00

It's funny how you try to leave and THAT'S when a lot of the supporters come out. That's when they all want to help or pass things around for you, OR, best one yet, act like you were their best friend when in actuality, they didn't speak to you maybe once or twice.

As I stated in a comment on my very first blog, I don't want pity, I don't want someone's charity, HOWEVER, I was asking for help. I offered things that I could to make money for this cause, I wanted to show that, I was willing to WORK for the help I was offered. Instead it turns into me leaving the one program that I loved more then life it seemed, and my FEW friends who were honestly being friends.

I suppose when your honest and up front about your intentions, people don't want anything to do with what you have to offer. Maybe just maybe, I should start lying and that would get the things done. ARE YOU KIDDING ME, if I have to stoop that low to get help I don't want OR need it. What gratification would there be to it if I lied to the ones of you who cared enough to follow me. I would have gotten what I wanted, like the Janel woman, but would it have been worth it? Would losing my babies, my husband, my friends be worth all of that? I don't think so. I was raised that if you have to lie for something then you don't really need it that bad anyways.

There have been one or two that have came out of the wood works that are offering help, but they are also (some not all) the ones who never spoke to me before all of this came up.

For those who were/are worried about me I am forever grateful to you. Your caring attitudes are what keep me coming back here. I am thankful that God blessed me with your friendship!!!

Bad start to the week.

2009-07-06T09:55:00.000-04:00

Well, what about that, it's Monday and I have already hit a brick wall. I planned on starting today off with looking for FHA loans. All was going well until, I found the local lender. Remember how I said my ex had caused me some problems? Well, those problems hit me head on this morning. Go figure right? Well, it just so happens that the only FHA lender in town, is also the place my ex filed bankruptcy against about 6 yrs ago. Now, how does that effect me? Well, he decided that since WE were purchasing this spot of land that WE would get a loan together. Now, mind you, he was a controlling imbecile who had to have his way or we all paid dearly. So, naturally, fearing what would happen if I fought putting my name on the loan, I sign my name. So, now if I so much as try to start a savings account or checking account I am faced with what he did. How is that for a turn of fate. So, now on to look for other options.

I have been searching this morning for other options to getting us a place to live. However, small towns turn up little to no options. It's kind of ironic I suppose, we can't afford to live here, but can't afford to move without help. UGH, where is the break for those who actually try to make their lives better. What is it with this country, do we need to start lying and stealing to get what we need? I mean how are people suppose to survive, feed their families, and so on, if they can't get help honestly. Sorry, my faith in God, is to strong to throw away on a lie to steal money from those who are in need. Yet those in need can't get a dime of help.

What makes me even more upset, is that people can convince others to help pay for their kids to do this or that, (i.e. pageants, camps) but kids who are on the verge of being homeless inside a car can't get squat!

It breaks my heart to sit here and look at my kids and not know where we are going to be living tomorrow, in a week or even in a month. I'm tired of telling them to "learn to live with it". They, nor any other child, should have to worry about things such as this, yet, my 9 year old will sit and cry her little eyes out because she want's to get away from here and away from the fighting that she faces due to two families trying to share a home. She tries so hard to be "strong for mommy" because she says that "mommy has dealt with enough from daddy mama and Aunt Courtney". At her age, her biggest worry should be what toy to play with, NOT, where will I have to live tomorrow. My kids, worry more about me being happy, then they worry about going to some stupid camp or if they will have something to eat for lunch. I'm tired of watching them being forced to grow up before they should have too. Is that fair for any child? NO!

My 6yr old keeps a tissue in his pocket because he says "mommy might need this", SIX YEARS OLD, and worries about mommy needing a tissue! Explain how this is fair? Explain how a 2 year old feels she needs to walk around saying "I'm sorry mommy" when she has no reason to be sorry!! Someone PLEASE explain this to me. I am constantly telling my kids that they need to be kids and not to worry about mommy, home, or anything other then what toy to play with. It doesn't change that they still worry, but at least I make sure they know they shouldn't worry about it. YET, my kids don't worry if they don't get everything they cry for. The aren't spoiled and can never be because I can't afford to spoil them. YET, I hear all of these parents complaining because they couldn't get their child this or that when they wanted it. My kids haven't even gotten so much as a gift for their birthdays this year. No toys on pay day, not special snacks, nothing like that. They don't complain, naturally, they ask, but understand when I tell them that we can't afford it.

Now, all you complainers who, worry about little things, why not take a walk in my shoes for one day. When your done, lets see how much you really worry about your child not getting the toys it's cried for all day, or the dessert that they wanted, or the name brand clothes. Lets see if you don't become thankful that they can be kids, they have a home, and they have what they NEED!

My story..

2009-07-06T00:42:00.000-04:00

Ok, well, this blog began as a place to put my graphics and such to showcase them, and give them away to those who were into digital scrap booking and such. That all has recently changed. I will still offer previews of graphics I do, but the majority of this blog will be the journey of trying to get my family a home. So, I thought the best way to start this would be to offer my story to each and everyone who would like to follow my adventure.

First a little about me...
I am a 28 year old mother of three. I have been married twice and thankfully, my second marriage has been such a blessing. However, my ex husband feels the need to ruin this marriage as he did ours. He, however is another issue in his own right. He was both mentally and verbally abusive. He has threatened to kill me and we have had to fight with child protection services to make sure our kids are safe around him.

Prior to this marriage, I faced a lot of issues within my family that are best left unsaid as they are easier for me to deal with that way. However, they have caused a bit of strain in my life.

Now, on to my current marriage. This have been up and down with us, but with much prayer and faith in God things have always managed to work out. He works full time, but between paying our share of the bills, well, getting a place of our own is out of the question.

It seems that lately, my parents, have let things go so far and seems they are wanting us to move out. I say this because we are putting up with more fighting and going on that really, wasn't THIS bad before we had to move in with them. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, I just can not stay here any longer. The fighting is tearing down what nerve I had, along with the damage it is doing to my three children.

So, I thought it was easier and a smarter move to offer a place for everyone to keep up with my adventure, and maybe if someone felt lead to send a donation I could get help getting us a home.

We have our eye on a place, but unfortunately, bad exes left us with bad credit, so we are having to scrap every penny we can find to try to get a place for my children to live. We have looked into renting places, but right now all that is available is 2 bedroom places. Sorry, 5 people can not live in a two bedroom home. We tried it once, and due to the child protection being drug in against my ex, we were informed right then that for us to get a home with at least 3 bedrooms.

For those who don't know me, putting myself out like this and leaving room for charity and such, is NOT something I like doing. I don't like having to ask for help, and definitely don't like having to do it this way. The last thing I want is to have my business blasted all over the internet for everyone to see, but I figured that to get help, I would have to let people know WHY I'm going to such extremes. Please don't think bad of me for going about it this way, but this is my only other option on top what I am already doing.

If you can help, I am forever debited to you. There is not enough thank you's to cover my debt of gratitude.